Just read if you want..-part two-END

Like i'll wake up tomorrow morning and i somehow become a princess and live a life happily ever after.. So cliche.. Corny and cheesy.. Ergh.. I'm pathetic.. But, who cares.. It just i feel tired by now.. Really, really tired.. Even to breathe i don't think that i have the energy.. Yay.. Go me.. If only.. Yeah.. If only. But, life wasn't about if only.. It about... Ugh.. Who care. I don't wanna even think about it. IT. HURT. SO. MUCH. IN. THERE.
P/S; sorry for my helplessnes. I'm having my day...

Just read if you want..-Part one-

Do you ever have a time when you feel all you wanna do is just to melt in the dark, being invisible and not care anymore? Coz if you have, you'll know what it feel like coz, it is what i feel now. All i wanna do is, just to blend in the dark and stay like that forever. I've come to this verge of crying but i just can't. I feel like i want to stop breathing coz everytime i breath, it hurt so much in the chest. All the pain is crazy. All i ever wanted is to stay in a deep sleep for forever coz it is the only time i feel calm. Nothing pain. Just peace. Yeah. I know i sound pathetic. If life just can be change, i'll choose to stay in the other side of the world where people is different and just plain different. I always like new place. It make me happy. Leave all my worryness, trouble, people and life where i leave now. If life somehow change after i sleep and i wake up to a new life, that would be great. But, life wasn't about dream. It's a reality. There's no such a happy ending like disney movie.
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BARBEQUE..!! Fun?

Wargh.. I smelled like barbeque gravy.. Erm.. Yum? Well my bro decide to have barbeque today. I have no offense to it as long as i'm not the one who cook it. I hate smoke. Ask me anything but not to cook that thing. I hate it because i'll end up sweaty and smell like i use barbeque sauce as perfume. Eww.. How feminine is that.. Yeah, right..
P/S; i betta get going. Mom gonna cook me if stay here any longer.. Muahaha.. Just joking. My mom not that cruel..

I act because of JOY..

When you think, act and feel, it's because of Joy. If it makes you feel good, feel happy, feel like there is a purpose to life, you'll be glad to do it. Although sometimes naive and quick to act, you have good intentions. You'll push the limit on yourself if you have to. You're more than willing to change and actually embrace it. Taking care of others before yourself is something that you do with a passion. Not because of any reward or other purpose except that it is a kind act and makes you absolutely elated with happiness. The Joys are the most likely to be a humanitarian, a (moralistic) vegetarian, drive hybrid cars or volunteer at charities. You easily connect with other people and have an unusual talent for getting folks to open up to you. Joys are loving, nurturing, accepting, selfless, wise and, paradoxically, naive, very pure-hearted.
P/S; another quiz result. Kinda corny, but it's fun..

I am an oatmeal cookies!!

Oatmeal Cookie
these types of people are warm, loving and caring......they can be very restless and or romantic....they are very goo in relationships and take a more psychological approach to intuition and yet their hearts are still set on being one with the universe....they make good people look better....they are logical yet have thee eyes of intuitive wisdom....if you are dating this person then you have made a very wonderful new discovery....you struck gold and no one can replace that unless they were jerks and liked something else....usually you think way outside the box with intuitive thinking with logical reasoning, but too much logic is not too good... especially when it comes to feelings....many people love to like you and many people would love to hate you....either way they cannot win...gold is gold and silver cannot compare....
P/S; i take this quiz on quizilla and this is my cookies result.

Ugh..

Ugh.. I'm on the quizzilla(good site ya knoe) just now. But i can't stand it anymore. As i check all the peeps journal, all say, rip, deceased, fly high, in memory and blahblah..
Urgh..
I hate it..!!!!
Some think it fun saying i want to die, i wanna kill myself, even they set the day. WTH!!!!!
I hate when people play about death..
My friend almost die and everytime we get him back, we were so happy(for ryan, keep healthy).
Then,
my depression level get higher got when i read those sickening journal. I know that all of us have problem.. Even me too.. But, why choose death as the end. Why don't you try to solve it. If you just can,
Just move on..
But, why death? Why..!? WHAT!? You think after you die, u'll leave all problem away? No, you .....! It won't!!! You think it the best way? Don't you know that, people who love you will suffer more than you..
In the end of the day, what does death get you?
Easy, NONE!!!!!
P/S; just don't die yet, ryan! You got so many thing to accomplish first. Remember those dreams?

Haa.. Random Song!!

And when it rains on this side of town It touches everything Just say it again and mean it We don't miss a thing You made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
and convinced yourself that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
and no (oh ) how could you do it (oh I ) I never saw it coming (no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay Just long enough to explain And when it rains
You always find an escape Just running away From all of the ones who love you From everything You made yourself a bed at the bottom Of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep till May
P/S; It's by paramore- i don't remember the tittle.. LOL..

Erm..

FrankietheBear (he insist to put that): Well done Captain Oblivious..!!
Drake: Gee.. Great..*note the sarcasm
Tim: You somehow manage to understand it. Good job, bro!
Jake: Duh.. Retard..
Hayden: Www... WHAT...!?
*all faint except Jake and Hayden*
Hayden: *stutter* What did I say..?
Jake: Dude. No offense. But, you are bloody retard..*walk away*
P/S; this is stupid..argh

Yet another song..

going back to the corner where i first saw you,
gonna camp in my sleeping bag. i'm not gonna move,
got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
saying if you see this girl can you tell her where i am,
some try to hand me money they don't understand,
i'm not... broke i'm just a broken hearted man,
i know it makes no sense, but what else can i do,
how can i move on when i've been in love with you...
cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i can be,
thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
and you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
so i'm not moving...
i'm not moving..
P/S; it a song by the script- the man who can't be move i think..

Weep.weep.. Song!!!

My best friend gave me
The best advice
He said each day's a gift
And not a given right
Leave no stone unturned
Leave your fears behind
And try to take
The path less traveled by
That first step you take
Is the longest stride
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day
If today was your last day
Against the grain
Should be a way of life
What's worth the prize
Is always worth the fight
Every second counts
'cause there's no second try,
So live like you'll
Never live it twice
Don't take the free ride
In your own life
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
P/S; it's 'if today is your last day by nickleback. I heart them.. Lol.. So cheesy of me..

YAY!!!!!!!!

Finally my fever run down! *weep.weep* Applause for me peeps!! Cheer for the joy!! Muahahaha..!! By now, i'm enjoying(trying) my tea.. Maa said it good for me to regain my energy back.. Phew.. Luckily i made it extra sweet. 3 sugar cube lol!! Sweeeeet.... *weep.weep* Muahaha.. What..!? Maa said i look slimmer(sp?). So, i need my fat again.*wink* Huahaha.. I think i better stop. I got sugar poison. To active to sit and write on here.. Muahaha..!!! It's raining and i want to play in the rain...!!!
P/S; i'm gonna catch fever don't i..? Song of the time, i'm just in love-glay. Kinda cute. It's j-rock..

Urgh....

By now, i'm feeling like a crap. My head hurts like crazy. Try to focus on doing my homework.. But, crap!! I can't! It's been a few day since i catch fever. Ugh.. When it'll cool down..? Haiz.. I left school today(again).. What i've been missing to cool my fever.. I take my med. Check my body temp hourly. Bath for a few time. Eat..(though i saw everything nauseous and make me wanna puke). What i haven't down yet.. Argh.. My head's killing me..
P/S; song of the time-nothing. Every sound annoy me. Make my head feel like it's gonna explode.

It's a song..

Waiting your call, call im sick, call im angry, call im desperate for your voice, listening to the song we used to sing, in the car do you remember, butterflies carry summer, its playing on repeat, just like when we would meet like when would meet, i was born to tell i love you and i am torn to do what i have to make you mine, stay with me tonight..
Yea.. I know, not the right song for the 'hope' post..
P/S; it's 'your call' by secondhand serenade.

Hope..

In the name of hope,
In the name of love,
And,
In the name of fear,
Dear Allah,
Bless our heart,
Our soul,
Our mind,
And,
Please protect us from any harm.
Live, love and laugh..
P/S; nothing to say..

WHATTT.....!!!???

My school is closed for a week..!? Lol.. How come, duh..? Haiz.. Looks like my frog-cutting-experiment is going to be postponed.. What a waste.. What a waste.. But,
forget about that. The thing is i'm worry about my own health and my friends. Then epidemic become pendemic. It worsen time by time. And the worse thing is, it spread through air.. I can't imagine it.. God, please protect us..
P/S: it's raining and i wish it will stay like this forever. Times seems like it's not moving..

I'm waiting...!!!

At school, duh.. Haiz.. 'm so bored lol.. It's 4 p.m n sumting.. WARGH....!!! By now, i'm hanging around with m'friend, yaya n other(like u'll know them if mention their name). Say hye hun! She say hye.. (Yeah.. I know u read it by now) Urgh.. My tummy hurt.. Kinda weird.. Maybe.. Erm.. It's... Erm.. It's the.. The time of the month.. Hahaha... Yeah.. Juz jk lol.. I'm so bored to death that i keep babbling about anything that i write. Cen2 is reading bout what i write by now. (N yeah.. Yaya.. U still read the novel) Herm.. ''out for a while'' . . . . . . . . . . . . Haa!!!!!!!! 'm back! Duh.. I'm so silly right.. Haiz.. The boredness killing me!!! Somebody! Move your a'' and come grab me here.. Argh.. I'm dying.. ''fainted''
P/S; i'm dead..-_-