The wedding and daze..

Aaah!
Rainbow star..!
My.. My..
The wedding..
*blurt out*

Owh.. O.o??

These past few days, i've been drinking weird taste tea.. Herm..
Is it because my to much consume of coffee..?
Nah.. Maybe not.. I guess..?

Suatu petang yang gelap..

Dua tiga hari ni, rasanye nak memperkayakan bahasa Malaysia. Sekarang ni, saya tengah tengok langit. Macam yang saya biasa lakukan. Langit hari ni gelap. Awan yang bertompok di dada langit pun hitam. Angin terasa mencucuk ke tulang hitam. Kucing di kaki, berlingkar tidur. Memandang air hujan ni buat saya rasa sayu pula. Teringat pula pada post-post saya sebelum ini. Semuanya tentang perasaan kecewa saya.
I AM SO SELFISH!
Haih.. Kenapa la saya asyik mengeluh dan merungut. Tak sedar agaknya saya ni yang semua tu cubaan dari yang Esa. Sebab, Allah sayang saya. Langit gelap, tapi saya suka. Bawa satu rasa keinsafan. Kagum dengan ciptaan-Nya.
Kaku saya di sini. Herm.. Angin menderu kuat. Mengalun zikir. Astagfirullahalazim. Indahnya hidup ni.
Dua tiga hari ini jugak lah, sahabat tersayang asyik bercakap tentang cinta. Banyak yang mereka berdua bahaskan. Dan banyaklah juga yang saya bebelkan. Mendengar berdua, terasa pulak seperti ingin bercinta. Mahu mencari pengalaman.
Haha.. Lucu sungguh minda saya.. Herm..

I MISS MAKKAH

Huuu... I really miss this place. I want to feel the innocence feeling again..

Bila saya bercakap tentang cinta...

Yep.. Hari ini blog 'post' dalam Bahasa Malaysia..
Berbalik kepada tajuk, kawan-kawan selalu jadi macam 'dumbstruck' ect.. ect.. bila saya cakap tentang cinta..
I BELIEVE IN LOVE.
Mestilah! Mungkin kerana saya jarang berbicara mengenai hal ini bersama mereka secara terbuka. Kalau boleh, kebiasaanya, saya cuba mengelak dari menyentuh topik CINTA..
Bagi saya, CINTA itu CINTA..
Entahlah.. Saya pun dah penat memikirkan ayat, kata-kata, pepatah ect.. ect.. tentang maksud CINTA..
Cinta
Itu
Perasaan
Yang
Lahir
Dari
Sudut
Jiwa
Konklusinya, CARILAH CINTA YANG DIREDHA
>post ini untuk ABAH. Abah, acik sayang abah..
Mungkin lidah ini tak pernah menyebut di depan..

Looking through..

Its the break, and i'm feeling not-so-holiday. My mind still in exam fever. Just thinking bout it made me shiver. Waiting for my result is a pain in the a**. It felt weird, depressing, choking. Herm..
It's raining heavily right now. And i'm hoping that the raindrop could sooth me sort off. My serenade.
I guess, in a few days, i'll get the rest..
Herm...
>My model today is my friend, yaya. Looking deep through..

A hobo attack us!! Wargh!!!!

Yeah.. Not me, but my friend..
The story is like this, my friend and i were waiting our bus at the stop, then, there is guy at there. A man in his late fifthy-es, wearing 'kopiah', spectacles and look kind of decent. Well, basically, a normal old Malay folks. We just ignore him and chat among us. When, we were getting on the bus, still talking among us, that man, poked my friend arm. We were shocked! Then he start harassing my friend with mean word. He even throw a paper to her. Man.. I thought my friend is going to cry.. But, shes tough. Luckily, there is one guy kind enough to help us.
Thanks sir!!
After that, we just roll our eyes and try to shrug ìt off..
Well, its something isnt..
Haizz..
P/S: i wrote this straight on bus. I have this urge to snap the hobo man pict, but, can you imagine if he catch me.. Oh my.. And, i kept glancing at back for a few time..

T......T

All the best for all SPM candidates and to myself and my besties and also friends for our final exam..
Lame opening as always.
I'm thinking bout posting another picture too, BUT, as my brilliant hunny cell phone dont work that way, i just can post one picture only..
Today paper is *cue music -drumroll-* yay, the famous Additional Mathematic.. Woot.. NO! Its fricking fudge hard! Man.. Sux!
I'm hoping on passing for this paper..
*sigh dramatically*
Meaning, i have and need to pray a lot of Solat Hajat..
And, BTW, i'm on the process making my rents to bring me to the Holy Land of Mecca again next year.. Amin..
I need that innonce feeling again..
SONG OF TIME - INNONCE Avril Lavigne

A doodle, bangle, wristwatch and ring

I know, lame opening right?? But, who cares. I'm fricking fudge up right now.. God!! Why do we have to sit on exam. Seriously! Thinking back, all of our life seems tend to 'hey, go study! You got exam. Good result, better college. Do good in college.. And bla, bla, bla...' Dont you think i'm right..? I am seriously want to get over with my final exam and just go for a vacation. But, no! My rents just have to make me go for a tuition class this coming break.. Seriously! Just give me a break for a second from all those fricking hard 10 SUBJECT of my study. Argh!! My life is fudge up lately. Lame. Lame. Lame. So much thing happen at one time. SELF!! Chillax.. U got it cover up.. T-T 8B

Do you..?

Ever feel like crying? I did just now. But i cant. I feel unease. Thing felt so wrong. Heavier. I dont have my comfort place. People never listen to me. Inside. No! Dont blame them for the have own problem. Friends seek my comfort. Not that i blame them for my unease. Yet, i find it as learning. Not bragging or boasting bout it, but, its true indeed. I dont blame. Really guys! Im glad you find me instead of other. I really did. I dont have my own comfort place yet i dont want to seek one. Im afraid itll torture him. Yet, i dont blame other nor life for life is life. Hopefully, ill find the one. My comfort place. Self, you are strong. Keep that in mind. Dear Allah, thanks for the live you gave me. Amin. Ill find my comfort place soon and he too could make me as his comfort place of his own. He should. Really.. See me in the inside. I know i am a good actor for one never success to guess im faking.. But, dont be guilty or think im blaming you. No i am not. It just its me the one who carry the blame.
Love, me.

Life and future

Thats my feet.. My post today is bout future and life. Sometime, i wonder what could happen next. Life could be great. And it also could be hate. Erm.. I dont know.. People perspective are differ. I dont judge for they have their own reason. For future, i dont know what to expect. Today story tell me something else. But, on other minute, it could just change like that. Still, i hope for the best.

First post, Last post of the month. Maybe..?

Exam is today.. Yay.. My first paper today is art. Easy peasy(sp?).. NOT! I dont get it why dearest teacher of mine have to do cooking demo in art room. WTF? *F FOR FUDGE, i dont curse, occasionally* I need peace here teacher.. I can still hear the sound of the loud food processor. Its ringing. PLUS, with the annoying rambling and teasing from my lovely seniors(boys). Wonderful.. Luckily i managed not to make the painting look like crap. Or, at least.. Hehheehe.. What? Dont look at me.. Can you imagine i've been hovering(literally) on the canvas for 5 hours straigt!? God! My back hurt.. Cant feel my arm.. Its numb! I got BM test tomorrow.*God! Long essay!!*
Oh.. I think this could be my last and first post of this month for i have 3 long weeks of exam *how great is that* I'm not so sure yet.. This blog is like my diary, so, i'll write back in anytime soon.
I hate saying goodbye. Its like were leaving the life on world.
Well, ttyl..