My Weeks..

Herm.. Its been kind of a long time after my last update.. Well, let me show what i've doing on my lousy day these past week..
- eat, sleep (usual stuff)
- extra class (5 tuition class/1h30m each)
- renovate my lawn
- build my own fish pond (its look like a hole really)
- spending my time on Rambutan tree
- googling over the camera for nothing
- stare off into space
- a few attempt to read/finish Eclipse without falling asleep
- sketching (my art skill getting worse)
- sulking over my damn hairstyle (getting better day by day)
So, that it is my weeks..
Boring much.. T-T

Haircut.. Pathetic

I went to cut my hair today. My friend want to treat me as she also want to cut her hair. We thought the price was low(like we use to pay) So, both of us happily told the lady to cut our hair like the picture.So, we pay her well.But, what frustate me is,its look like some crazy monkey chop it.Not only it was building high expensive, my hair doesnt have even a slightest bit of what i want.
Wat i want:

Become this:

Living Zombie..

I am a pile of crap..
I AM A LIVING ZOMBIE..
Tired+Stress+Guilty+Depressed+Self-concious

E.Y.E RESULT, G/B..?

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
I dont want to know..
*Chillax self, chill* T_______T
-EDITED-
I dont know how my result look like, but, according to my bestie, i am STILL in the first class..*thank God*
I guess, that should make me happy and be at peace..
BUT
Somehow, it doesnt make me feel the feeling that i've been craving before knowing my result..
Maybe, the fact that i'm not fully. ....
Ergh..
I know i've bitching a lot lately..
Sitting here, make me think..
HOW I WASTE MY LIFE BITCHING
I'm sure i never write bout my happy moment..
But, i just cant..
Looks like i have more ideas to talk when it come to my sulking..
Now that i start mumbling nonsense, i think i should stop..
Later..

Another Crappy Post

-Holiday-
My holiday is dull..
Nothing..
Do everyday chore..
Study? WWU
-Perfect Photo-
I scrathed myself in order to get perfect picture..
A few cuts and scrathces..
Stinging!!
-Boredemn-
And, boredness lead to curiosity which bring harm..
-PROCASTINATE-
I am..
Ingnorance is a bliss(taken from zaty)
-> Lastly, i want to go to try to cry a bit.. A bit weird.. Being crazy.. Doing stuff..
> And i think this is how my holiday going to end..
Crappy post.. Thanks to Mr. Boredness Feeling..

Purchasing the 'Breaking Dawn'..!? WWU??

Ngahahaha.. By now, i'm waiting my friends finishing their mid-breakfast meal.. Erm.. Yum?
I know i'll regret my decision after this.. But, well..
Let this insanity fall down selflessly(w.t.fudge)..
BREAKìNG DAWN as my possesion..
Got the idea?

Officially banned(sp?)

I am banned(sp?) from SWEET.
See, i even dont know how to spell it.
How can i stay away..?
*flashback*
-somewhere in the middle of conversation on dinner-
Mummy: Yeah..*nod* Your sis are right, Bella. U got your Abah's genes more than mine. More tendecies to get diabetes. *listing more thing that i'm not bother to write*
Me: *still chewing*
Sis: Mum's right u see..
Mummy: U ARE NOW BANNED FROM SWEET..
*end of flashback*
Aaaaaaawwwww......*long whine*
I WUB SWEET..!!

My room FLOOD!! Again..

Yep! It is..
Its been 146345 times its get flood..
Ok. I exagerate the number a bit..
Ok! A lot..
But, well..
I need someone to blame on..
Who the hell is the archìtect of this damn house..
Why on earth my so-fudge-up of a room always FLOOD..
Gah..
Now, i dont have to go to the swimming pool
coz
i already have one in my room..*sarcasm*

The wedding and daze..

Aaah!
Rainbow star..!
My.. My..
The wedding..
*blurt out*

Owh.. O.o??

These past few days, i've been drinking weird taste tea.. Herm..
Is it because my to much consume of coffee..?
Nah.. Maybe not.. I guess..?

Suatu petang yang gelap..

Dua tiga hari ni, rasanye nak memperkayakan bahasa Malaysia. Sekarang ni, saya tengah tengok langit. Macam yang saya biasa lakukan. Langit hari ni gelap. Awan yang bertompok di dada langit pun hitam. Angin terasa mencucuk ke tulang hitam. Kucing di kaki, berlingkar tidur. Memandang air hujan ni buat saya rasa sayu pula. Teringat pula pada post-post saya sebelum ini. Semuanya tentang perasaan kecewa saya.
I AM SO SELFISH!
Haih.. Kenapa la saya asyik mengeluh dan merungut. Tak sedar agaknya saya ni yang semua tu cubaan dari yang Esa. Sebab, Allah sayang saya. Langit gelap, tapi saya suka. Bawa satu rasa keinsafan. Kagum dengan ciptaan-Nya.
Kaku saya di sini. Herm.. Angin menderu kuat. Mengalun zikir. Astagfirullahalazim. Indahnya hidup ni.
Dua tiga hari ini jugak lah, sahabat tersayang asyik bercakap tentang cinta. Banyak yang mereka berdua bahaskan. Dan banyaklah juga yang saya bebelkan. Mendengar berdua, terasa pulak seperti ingin bercinta. Mahu mencari pengalaman.
Haha.. Lucu sungguh minda saya.. Herm..

I MISS MAKKAH

Huuu... I really miss this place. I want to feel the innocence feeling again..

Looking through..

Its the break, and i'm feeling not-so-holiday. My mind still in exam fever. Just thinking bout it made me shiver. Waiting for my result is a pain in the a**. It felt weird, depressing, choking. Herm..
It's raining heavily right now. And i'm hoping that the raindrop could sooth me sort off. My serenade.
I guess, in a few days, i'll get the rest..
Herm...
>My model today is my friend, yaya. Looking deep through..

A hobo attack us!! Wargh!!!!

Yeah.. Not me, but my friend..
The story is like this, my friend and i were waiting our bus at the stop, then, there is guy at there. A man in his late fifthy-es, wearing 'kopiah', spectacles and look kind of decent. Well, basically, a normal old Malay folks. We just ignore him and chat among us. When, we were getting on the bus, still talking among us, that man, poked my friend arm. We were shocked! Then he start harassing my friend with mean word. He even throw a paper to her. Man.. I thought my friend is going to cry.. But, shes tough. Luckily, there is one guy kind enough to help us.
Thanks sir!!
After that, we just roll our eyes and try to shrug ìt off..
Well, its something isnt..
Haizz..
P/S: i wrote this straight on bus. I have this urge to snap the hobo man pict, but, can you imagine if he catch me.. Oh my.. And, i kept glancing at back for a few time..

T......T

All the best for all SPM candidates and to myself and my besties and also friends for our final exam..
Lame opening as always.
I'm thinking bout posting another picture too, BUT, as my brilliant hunny cell phone dont work that way, i just can post one picture only..
Today paper is *cue music -drumroll-* yay, the famous Additional Mathematic.. Woot.. NO! Its fricking fudge hard! Man.. Sux!
I'm hoping on passing for this paper..
*sigh dramatically*
Meaning, i have and need to pray a lot of Solat Hajat..
And, BTW, i'm on the process making my rents to bring me to the Holy Land of Mecca again next year.. Amin..
I need that innonce feeling again..
SONG OF TIME - INNONCE Avril Lavigne

A doodle, bangle, wristwatch and ring

I know, lame opening right?? But, who cares. I'm fricking fudge up right now.. God!! Why do we have to sit on exam. Seriously! Thinking back, all of our life seems tend to 'hey, go study! You got exam. Good result, better college. Do good in college.. And bla, bla, bla...' Dont you think i'm right..? I am seriously want to get over with my final exam and just go for a vacation. But, no! My rents just have to make me go for a tuition class this coming break.. Seriously! Just give me a break for a second from all those fricking hard 10 SUBJECT of my study. Argh!! My life is fudge up lately. Lame. Lame. Lame. So much thing happen at one time. SELF!! Chillax.. U got it cover up.. T-T 8B

Do you..?

Ever feel like crying? I did just now. But i cant. I feel unease. Thing felt so wrong. Heavier. I dont have my comfort place. People never listen to me. Inside. No! Dont blame them for the have own problem. Friends seek my comfort. Not that i blame them for my unease. Yet, i find it as learning. Not bragging or boasting bout it, but, its true indeed. I dont blame. Really guys! Im glad you find me instead of other. I really did. I dont have my own comfort place yet i dont want to seek one. Im afraid itll torture him. Yet, i dont blame other nor life for life is life. Hopefully, ill find the one. My comfort place. Self, you are strong. Keep that in mind. Dear Allah, thanks for the live you gave me. Amin. Ill find my comfort place soon and he too could make me as his comfort place of his own. He should. Really.. See me in the inside. I know i am a good actor for one never success to guess im faking.. But, dont be guilty or think im blaming you. No i am not. It just its me the one who carry the blame.
Love, me.

Life and future

Thats my feet.. My post today is bout future and life. Sometime, i wonder what could happen next. Life could be great. And it also could be hate. Erm.. I dont know.. People perspective are differ. I dont judge for they have their own reason. For future, i dont know what to expect. Today story tell me something else. But, on other minute, it could just change like that. Still, i hope for the best.

First post, Last post of the month. Maybe..?

Exam is today.. Yay.. My first paper today is art. Easy peasy(sp?).. NOT! I dont get it why dearest teacher of mine have to do cooking demo in art room. WTF? *F FOR FUDGE, i dont curse, occasionally* I need peace here teacher.. I can still hear the sound of the loud food processor. Its ringing. PLUS, with the annoying rambling and teasing from my lovely seniors(boys). Wonderful.. Luckily i managed not to make the painting look like crap. Or, at least.. Hehheehe.. What? Dont look at me.. Can you imagine i've been hovering(literally) on the canvas for 5 hours straigt!? God! My back hurt.. Cant feel my arm.. Its numb! I got BM test tomorrow.*God! Long essay!!*
Oh.. I think this could be my last and first post of this month for i have 3 long weeks of exam *how great is that* I'm not so sure yet.. This blog is like my diary, so, i'll write back in anytime soon.
I hate saying goodbye. Its like were leaving the life on world.
Well, ttyl..

Yeah! Finally..!!

Finally i got the bonjela thingy for my mouth ulcer! Sip! Sip! Banzai!! Sip! Sip! Banzai!!